#2. it's about losses and gains and it's about growing up and never knowing what to do and it's about finding peace in panic and it's about love and hate and it's about myself and its about you and how everything is and always will be chaos.

just as before, thank you to everyone who has supported me.
cover art by molly turner :)

Lyrics -

Chaos:
Today I woke up sick
the inside of my chest felt thick with tar
and my head was a casing and nothing more
i left my window open
and my journal is wet from the rain
this is a story
this is a story
this is a story

Dreamcatcher:
I touched a ghost
in the apartment of faded memory
my dreamcatchers bare
it never works if you're not there
so maybe its you
not the feather or the twine
theres a hex in my head
i cast it in my head

i saw your ghost
in my closet while i was sleeping
just seeing how im doing
i wish i could touch you
i wish i could see your eyes
from above, up above
and hows my brother doing
ill see you two soon


Fade:
For only a minute
i knew peace
for only a moment
it was you and me
we met
dressed in our black and best
you hiked up your dress
to show me your ink
on a bench in a blizzard
oh god i know peace
a kiss, it was just you and me

fade away
it's cold where i lay
it's mold and decay
fade away

later on
my body sought to tether
in time you dimmed
i thought we fit well together?
in my bed
all in a maelstrom
F U C K
i am all alone

fade away
it's all hell where i lay
it's rot and decay
fade away

Simmer:
i'd like to say
it's not too late
cause it gets dark
when i lose faith

but i lost your face
up in outer space
when i got high
to get you off my mind

it works real well
and i am just a shell
and i get cold
when im on my own

i think you are great
i think we would be fine
i think we would be alright

but i feel the same
as yesterday
black burn marks
my lighter dont spark
but i feel ok
its not enough to say
that i'm doing alright
i just can make it through the night

i think you are great
i think we would be fine
i think we would be alright

Fledge:
Hello how it goes
are you feeling down
i heard you cut your lover in two
it comes and goes
so youre on your toes
and how are your folks, are they feeling proud?

when i fall down i look around to you

so you don't need them
theyll only bring you down
cut your hopes up
then ask you to come home
set the table, wash your hands
"HOLY SUNDAY DINNER"

who could blame you for coming around

When You Wake:
and i know
what it is
that makes you tick
do you know
what i see
or is it really just me?
god it's so cold
and i'm so low
i feel so fucking old
it's the same
that pulls you
to the bottom of the day
and when you wake
its not much easier
the clock don't change
when you wake
you wish it were easier
but today is yours to change

Frvr:
Today I woke up with birds and squirrels
my baby held me tight
then asked if i was feeling alright
i said sometimes im lazy
and other times im crazy
but right now i'm in the middle
and i couldn't ask for more
she said maybe its working,
being your darling
i said good morning dear
i wish forever was right here